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I want to be that mother who can stand up and say I am a strong confident mother and I know what is best for my children. We breastfeed and co sleep, We listen, We include, We eat chocolate and snot smoothies, we trampoline and grow frogs, we sling, we carry and we try and understand and work with our children without resorting to punishments, threats or coercion.

Friday 27 March 2015

Intermittent willpower

Who has tried the intermittent fasting.....tell me your experiences and tips?


I tried the Paleo way of eating last year and found it hard to sustain the no grains thing (and the constant cooking thing!) I like cous cous. I like bread. I like quinoa. I like noodles. I'm not overly excited with most rice (except fried) and pasta DOES bloat me.....oh also the no sugar was really really hard but I'm going to have to get on that.  Again!!



Several people have suggested the 5:2 intermittent fasting way of eating and so I'm going to try it. Combined with less processed more 'real cooked from scratch foods' and actually really starting to cut down on my chocolate intake, not just pretend I am by spreading it thro the day more, this might work for me. 




Mercola suggests 11am-7pm. That sounds slightly more doable than ALL FRIKIN' DAY!!   I find it hard to eat in the mornings anyway but if I wait for hubby to come home and the kids to be in bed then it's nearly 10pm!!  

Day 3 of all eating together was refused by all the girls. Hubby loved his. He may have also knowingly and willingly eaten courgette but I didn't double check!!! 

This article was in my inbox today and even tho I said a while back, that I feel one step closer to death every time I read Mercola, I decided to keep subscribed.  A part of me knows he makes some sense. I don't read them all now but I opened this one tonight.

For whom the bell tolls

Unsurprisingly but very annoyingly my diabetes has resurfaced. Back to cooking real food instead of easy oven ready things and not eating chocolate every night. 
Fuckitybuggerybollox.

 I knew it was only a matter of time. There was no way I could sustain my health with the foods I was eating and definitely not with the amount of chocolate I was on. 


I guess I will be going back to almost Paleo again but this time I am aiming to cook only one meal instead of three. It's going to be a take it or leave it home from now on. I'm also going to have to increase my cooking repetoir to more than just chicken stir fry or mince and sweet potato. :(

#bloodyshittygenetics
#chocoholic

Sunday 15 March 2015

The REAL deal....

As of this week, 8months after we finally made the move and left the city for a new life in the country, 6months after we were told to leave our 'supposed' dream home in the country and 7months after we laid eyes on our REAL new dream home in the country, we are in the last stages and waiting for the papers and missives to be sorted. 

We are still tentative because we know how slow to respond and difficult it has been and they may come up with some new fresh hell before signing some of the property over to us.....BUT thanks to our loving family (who don't want to see us homeless!) and (un)fortunate inheritance, it would seem likely that we may be buying a farm!!!! Squeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

For as long as I can remember I have wanted to live in the country.  I grew up half in the city and mostly up north in the wilds of Scotland on a caravan site.  I created a childhood full of nature and excitement.  Wide open spaces. Fresh air. Mud. Sea. Solitude. Self sufficiency. Confidence, uniqueness and adventure. Its a way of life that always appealed to me way more than the 'little boxes on the hillside'!

It took me a long time to persuade my hubby that this is where we should be, that  this is where our kids should be growing up. Somewhere with space to explore, play and to find their own adventures. Our eldest is now 8 and I've been trying for 7yrs to get him to leave the comfort of his suburban zone! He now says he can't ever imagine moving back to closely spaced identikit houses 'made of ticky tacky'. 

The new place is definitely what an estate agent would call 'great potential'. We will have our work cut out for us but it will be all worth it in the end!  Well it better bloody be because we've encountered some crazy obstacles to get this far! 

We've managed to stay in this house well past our welcome. It has been an experience and has ultimately led us to this point. The loony landlord unwittingly did us a massive favour whilst he will be the one who will remain stuck and grumparsey in his miserable existence trying to make everyone else around him miserable. Someone should have told him you can't keep a good Berlow-Jackson down! 

We hope to move in April and once again start our new life in the country!!!

I can't wait! I've waited long ebloodynough!!





Meltdowns - daily. The stress is getting to us 
Losing the plot - daily. The stress is getting to us 
Breastfeeding - almost night weaned. Almost!!!